of the year; always a time for much thought and reflection;

As the end draws near, I consider what needs to end this year.  I need a fresh start on all fronts, and I intend to have it...

No more neglecting God.  Even though this year has been disappointing to say the least, God has still blessed me immensely.  I praise Him, if only for keeping me in my right mind from January-now, and He's done much more than that.

No more neglecting myself, especially my health.  It is just counterproductive and spills into other areas.

No more being so tight with my money.  I understand why (I never want to be poor again) but when it chokes the fun out of spending the very money that I worked for, it's an issue.

No more settling for less than I want and/or deserve.  Finally beginning to understand my worth and hopefully over the next couple weeks I can begin to apply that knowledge to my everyday life.

No more fear!!...

Just remembered Cheese and his LSATS today and said a prayer for him....God has bought him such a LONG way.  Thinking back to our college days, I just about cried when I looked over and saw him in fervent prayer in Bible study on Tuesday...I used to be the one encouraging him and inviting him to church & whatnot, but this year was a complete role reversal.  I NEVER thought he would be going to church regularly, much less more than me, and bible study;  One day I texted him pretty much venting about everything going on in my life and he invited me to bible study, again; Reluctantly I went, knowing it couldn't hurt and that I needed all the help I could get.  Four months later, I'm so much better for it.

Really looking forward to time away from work and D.C.  Next up, Beantown tomorrow and Monday; in two weeks, Philly for crew time and the Curry wedding, and then vacation/beach time with my adopted family in SC.  Looking forward to it all.  Let's end the year on a good note!

is fine but going back, I think, is almost sure to disappoint. I think that lesson was driven home today when I visited my high school but really it is the building that stands where my high school once did. I mean you brace yourself for the changes that time inevitably brings but what happens when what you once knew so well is barely recognizable?

I used to talk about how I missed high school and wanted to go back, even in college, but I see now that that only happens in movies. What happened, when & how it happened and who it happened with will never happen again, not in the exact way that it once did & probably not even close. People, places, things and circumstances change and time does not rewind. I guess the best that you can do is make the most of the present and move forward once it is past/has passed. You get no take backs or do overs. The fat lady has sung; in fact she is no longer fat and now works as a ballet teacher, lol. Good night.